Because it has been one of those days.......

Because it is a Wednesday.......................

Because I feel bloatie................................

Because Aaron made me feel awful about the "sporting goods store" joke I made yesterday............

Because my truck has been in the shop all week..............................

Because my pool won't stop leaking massive amounts of water..........................

Because it is Vacation Bible School at church this week....................................

Because my grandmother is scared I am actually on the verge of a nervous breakdown (I am not btw)............

Because I am now addicted to Coke icees.........................................

Because I have on jeggings today and they keep falling down..............................................

Because I grew three children inside of my body and became a total nutjob.................................

Because my children are small and I can't wait until these bad stages pass and then I am wracked with guilt for wishing these years away...............................................

Because when I went to get Destruct-o-girl up from her nap she was standing in the middle of her room, and now the crib, the last place in my home to confine her, is no longer a viable means of escape for me................

Because I thought I looked half cute today and then saw a photo of myself taken at VBS and thought I looked like a sparkly gorilla......................................

Because Aaron works a ton and I occasionally forget how lucky we are and feel sorry for myself................

Because the underwire is broken and/or coming out in all of my good, ridiculously expensive, humongous bras......................

Because we are going to the beach soon and I have nothing to wear..........................................

Because I ate cheese dip out of a jar for lunch.........................................

Because we got new carpet in the kids' rooms last week and all of the boys' stuff is still sitting in the living room....................................................

Because Aaron did the six days worth of dishes tonight to help me out and I resented the help because it only made me feel guilty inside for not having already done it myself...................................

Because I love my daughter so much, but sometimes I find myself dredding her presence because she is so busy and brave and difficult and occasionally awful................................

Because I haven't washed my hair since Saturday...........................................

Because I haven't gotten to coupon at CVS yet this week and now all the really good stuff will already be gone..............................

Because I haven't exercised in over a week.........................................

Because I have a bulging vericose vein that I am too young for and a colossal zit on my chin that I am too old for.....................................................

Because Steve Carrell left The Office and I'm just not sure how I am ever going to love it as much as I did with him.......................................

Because of the Earth's rotation around the Sun..................................

Because even though I know it's not true that everyone but me has it together - and even though most of the time I embrace and am fine with my harriedness - and even though I am aware that tomorrow is a new day - and even though I am usually fine with the fact that my house will never be spotless, the money will always be a worry, the kids are not perfect, and the laundry will never, ever, ever all be done and put away unless my mother is here.......................................

................I sat in my car in the church parking lot tonight having a coke icee and a king-sized Hershey's cookies and cream bar for dinner (great choice after the cheese dip and no exercise huh?) and cried to a dear friend who was sweet enough to listen and encourage and love even though she's got plenty of her own "becauses".   And while I was sitting here trying to decide exactly what I wanted to type tonight I realized - we all have our stuff. (duh)  And hopefully we are all just lucky enough to have someone listen to us when we need to get it out.  So I hope tonight that if this blog does nothing else - it helps reassure you that there is at least one more person out there that feels frazzled, and inept, and tired, and crazy, and bloatie.  And tomorrow will be new, and hopefully better, even if your grandmother does call your mother worried that you are on the verge of a total meltdown.  (seriously, I'm not.  I have candy bars and friends)  And even if you did just clean out your son's underwear drawer and realize that even though he is five, he is still wearing underwear that is a size 2T.

Love you like underwear that doesn't ride, chafe, and basically cut you in half,
Cassie

Angie Coleman
6/8/2011 02:11:50 pm

i so totally needed this entry today. I think we are living parallel lives. Thank you for sharing...you are so not alone :)

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Ashley Davis
6/8/2011 02:17:54 pm

You are too funny! Reading this totally made my night. You should write a book, and I am not even kidding. Hilarious and relatable.

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courtney
6/8/2011 09:05:17 pm

And the church said, "Amen." I hope you become famous. Cause if you do, you'll be the realest famous person on planet earth. Again, this post was like a checklist for me...yep, yep, yep, DOUBLE YEP... ESPECIALLY the part over feeling very guilty about wishing these crazy years away! Sometimes I just long to sit and look at my husband for 5 minutes uninterrupted, cause I LIKE him, and I MISS him!!!! And all the sweet church ladies say these are the best years of my life and I'll wish for them back someday?! Guilt, guilt, guilt... but thanks for the reminder that I'm normal:) Love you, friend!

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Denise
6/8/2011 09:12:03 pm

Hi. Someone told me once when Landon was small to wipe my cares on the tree outside the house before I went in and then wipe those home worries off when I came out. The result....the tree lost all its leaves and died. LOL! We ALL have those moments every single day.

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6/9/2011 01:26:38 am

It's as if you've been watching my whole day. Glad to know I'm not the only one.

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Karen Strickland
6/9/2011 01:04:13 pm

i must say some days seem crazier than others.....and this is going to sound cliche bc you REALLY do not see it when you are right in he middle of it all but, this too shall pass. No matter how wonderful things are or how terrible they may be nothing lasts. Everythings changing, time waits on no one. So when you are at your total wits end with those rambunchious sweeties just remember right now they are all where u can see, feel, and touch them. It wont be long until after a week you will be saying hmmmm wonder what they are up to? Because they have gone on with their lives & you dont know where they are or what they are doing & and you call & they dont answer & you have this sinking feeing in your gut. Thats where I am. Long gone are those days oof knowing their every move. No matter how many sermons you know they heard or how many church services you took them to its a big scary world. so be ready you just trade one crazy time for another. Welcome to being a mother who loves her kids!

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Lindsey
6/10/2011 08:54:19 am

Thanks for being real!! We've all had those candy bar & crying moments, thank God for friends who listen when we cry!! Hope today is a great day for you.

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